Day 5 into my 500 cal limit diet and ive broken it for the second time!!! URRRRRRRRRGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!! at least yesterday it was only by 30 cals. Tonight I was weak. This is so bad, Im gonna go do some sit ups now but heres my intake:
Yoghurt - 109 Isotonic drink - 140 Hot Chocolate & Belvita biscuits - 372 Bagel (AGAIN!!) - 250 Ice lolly - 60 Egg mayo sandwich (my major moment of weakness) - 374 disgusting Calories. Total - a whopping great 1305 Calories.
Thats almost 3x my limit. I need stronger control, I didn't even think about it, I just ate it. Tomorrow all I am having is water and green tea, I might try and keep up the fast for 3 days, something needs to be done, I have to do this, I dont really like fasting, but it will teach me not to binge.
New rule, for every 500 calories I go over my limit, I will fast for a day.
So I kind of went over my 500 limit by 30 calories, so tomorrow my limit will be 470 to balance it out. I don't really include excercise as a reduction in calories, I just think once its hit you lips it's in there, but I do excercise.
I'm starting to fight with my self in my head about whether this is what I want for myself, I know it's not healthy, I know I should lose the weight through excercise and a healthy diet, but I want to be skinny so bad! And I find it hard to resist things like cakes and fries, so by letting myself have small helpings within my 500 calorie limit, I think I get the best of both worlds.
It's been 4 days of a 500 calorie limit and im really starting to feel the hunger less, just a glass of water fills me up. I am finding myself watching the food channels and that seems to help satisfy me also. I haven't seen any lbs drop yet, but im hoping that at the end of the week there will be some results.
So I was always a skinny kid, but when I hit the teens, I started piling on the lbs. Everyone told me it was normal to get curvy as you grow up, but these weren't curves, it was just fat. I'm not obese or anything, but it sure does feel like it sometimes. Curves are fine when they're in the right places, love handles, this huge stomach and my fat ass thighs are not!
Whenever I have friends over, they all want to go in the hot tub, and I see them in they're bikini's with their tiny waists and the gap between their thighs, and I want that. I'm sick of being the one always pretending to be on my period so I dont have to go in.
College starts again in September and I want to be a whole new person when I go back, 50lbs less of a person actually. I want to be one of the skinny girls, with my hip bones sticking out and really prominent collar bones and the thing I'm looking forward to most, the gap between my thighs!!
I know it'll be a while before I get there but I will get there! a month of hard work should send me back at least 10 lbs lighter. And wow, I never realised how fat Lady gaga's legs are! i'm kinda happy mine are thinner than hers xD
I wanted to start my fast yesterday, but they had a bbq and noticed I wasn't eating, then when I want to start it today, they decide to take us all out for lunch. I had half a bowl of fresh tomato soup and half a slice of brown bread, no butter. I had a juice drink with my meal, and didn't really how many calories until I bought my sister a bottle to take home afterwards!!
Intake today: 1/2 a bowl of soup - 103.6 calories 1/2 brown bread slice - 80 calories Juice drink - 138 calories!!!!!
Total today - 321.6
My fast has to start tomorrow, it's just ridiculous now!