Day 5 into my 500 cal limit diet and ive broken it for the second time!!! URRRRRRRRRGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!
at least yesterday it was only by 30 cals. Tonight I was weak. This is so bad, Im gonna go do some sit ups now but heres my intake:

Yoghurt - 109
Isotonic drink - 140
Hot Chocolate & Belvita biscuits - 372
Bagel (AGAIN!!) - 250
Ice lolly - 60
Egg mayo sandwich (my major moment of weakness) - 374 disgusting Calories.
Total - a whopping great 1305 Calories.

Thats almost 3x my limit. I need stronger control, I didn't even think about it, I just ate it. Tomorrow all I am having is water and green tea, I might try and keep up the fast for 3 days, something needs to be done, I have to do this, I dont really like fasting, but it will teach me not to binge.

New rule, for every 500 calories I go over my limit, I will fast for a day.

So I was always a skinny kid, but when I hit the teens, I started piling on the lbs. Everyone told me it was normal to get curvy as you grow up, but these weren't curves, it was just fat. I'm not obese or anything, but it sure does feel like it sometimes. Curves are fine when they're in the right places, love handles, this huge stomach and my fat ass thighs are not!

Whenever I have friends over, they all want to go in the hot tub, and I see them in they're bikini's with their tiny waists and the gap between their thighs, and I want that. I'm sick of being the one always pretending to be on my period so I dont have to go in.

College starts again in September and I want to be a whole new person when I go back, 50lbs less of a person actually. I want to be one of the skinny girls, with my hip bones sticking out and really prominent collar bones and the thing I'm looking forward to most, the gap between my thighs!!

I know it'll be a while before I get there but I will get there! a month of hard work should send me back at least 10 lbs lighter. And wow, I never realised how fat Lady gaga's legs are! i'm kinda happy mine are thinner than hers xD

I wanted to start my fast yesterday, but they had a bbq and noticed I wasn't eating, then when I want to start it today, they decide to take us all out for lunch. I had half a bowl of fresh tomato soup and half a slice of brown bread, no butter. I had a juice drink with my meal, and didn't really how many calories until I bought my sister a bottle to take home afterwards!!

Intake today:
1/2 a bowl of soup - 103.6 calories
1/2 brown bread slice - 80 calories
Juice drink - 138 calories!!!!!

Total today - 321.6

My fast has to start tomorrow, it's just ridiculous now!

One day I will look like Taylor!